Impasse

Don’t you hate it when when you have so much to say but can’t find the right words?

I’ve made a promise to myself not to hide when I’m in pain. It’s unfair to laugh with others but cry alone; but there are things deep down behind this moral compass of mine that are full with conflicting, ugly feelings that no one would understand. There are depths within me, tangled and tumultuous, that harbor feelings too complex and raw that I can’t even comprehend.

I need the biggest hug at this moment. I wish I could talk to someone, anyone, without being judged. I need some escape. I need to get away from all this.

Yet, I find myself alone, without a trusted confidant to turn to.

Please let it get better soon, because I’m exhausted.